Love
It's like two red hot sabers piercing through my chest. Daring me to to stay intact as I once was before. Slowly ripping my flesh and easily slicing my bone, as though there could never be a formidable foe. Stabbing their lengths through my heart and shredding my soul. Burning everything they touch only to heal as they ease their way back out. Slipping back in through the now built up scar tissue. Never once stopping to consider the pain from the old wounds left behind. Never once caring about the battle between my mind and heart. Yet giving sweet reprise in times I feel I can hold on no longer. And tormenting my every sense into a physical emotion unbound by the laws of physics and psychology. These sabers are not bound by logic. They are entities of their own beginnings. Ones who don't live by laws of science or man. They reach in and grab for all that is whole within. Caressing emotions and wrapping the soul. They stretch into every fiber of living material within reach and hold on with a mighty grasp. 

......started this year's ago.....still can't quite finish but here it is. 

     Every now and then, there are these moments in life. Moments that can flash in front of your eyes and disappear altogether before your eyes even close for that next blink. Before the next breath expands your lungs. In less than a second, these moments can change everything. Change who you are, who you want to be, where you want to go in life, who you want to love or be loved by... The moments that turn a split second into an eternity. What feels like hours worth of information floods into your thoughts and seeps into every pore on the surface of your skin.

     These moments are so easily lost and looked past. I have done my best to pay attention to these moments and allow myself to sink into them. To understand and to listen to not only what my brain has to tell me, but my heart as well.

     It only takes one phrase heard, one sentence read, one line in a song to be sung; to set this into motion. Our bodies, minds and souls are all connected in this fantastically convoluted web of awareness. Seeping into these moments allows me to know me more. Something I have not payed close attention to, for far too long. They help me learn what I'm most scared of, what makes me weak in the knees, what makes me smile so much it hurts, what makes my heart skip a beat and my stomach to do flips. They bring up lost emotions on things I've suppressed for as long as possible. Force me to accept that I've made mistakes not only in my life but in the lives of others. They bring forth my weaknesses, the things I'm most embarrassed of and the things I'm far too insecure about.

     These moments, if truly payed attention to, can not only lift you up from your knees and show you the beauty of what can be; but can tear at every false security you've given yourself and show you the truth behind past and current convictions. Its terrifying to look into the eyes of the beast and not know what you'll see. But no matter how bad it may be, it is an opportunity. One that will allow you to grow, to understand, to maybe figure out what the hell is going on or why the hell you're in the position you're in. These moments need to be acknowledged. Without them, how do you know you? How do you become the best version of yourself? How do you know where to start, to pick yourself up from?

   It kind of takes me back to my posts about paths. These moments can help guide you towards or away from a certain path in life. They help you accept pains and glorify happiness.

Don't let a split second be an opportunity ignored.